HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Best Wishes for  2013! 
May the new year be full of happiness and prosperity!!

Hong Kong Times Square: Photo courtesy of my cousin

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

Best Wishes for 2013!

Burnt Out Eyes (X_X)

Hey there,

Is everyone ready for Xmas? I'm sure needing a break!


So what has been happening lately? Well not much as you can gather. I haven't been able to update this blog for a while... it's been busy.

I have been doing data analysis for the past... almost 3 months and I have seriously burnt my eyes out. Working stupid hours of between 10-16 hours straight on the computer everyday, dealing with hundreds of data entries don't do your eyes any good, no matter how much sleep you (try to) get. I'm definitely needing a good week of sleeping non-stop, at least!

Although I had an opportunity to be a journalist and wrote my first commentary to be publish... (*^^*) So there were some perks along the way... even if I feel like death warmed up by the end of it!

The eclipse has passed...

After several days of calm consideration, the darkness has finally lifted.
I was reminded that I should never have to tolerate something that is unfairly targeted at me, that I should never have to deal with people that waste my time and efforts and above all, should never be unjustly hurt by people.

I have reflected, just like the moon in the water and I sought to find my wrong-doings. But just as the water is clear, I have a clear conscience.

And thus, I will return to being myself. I will not allow people to assume that I can be walked all over and become their puppet.

A time of darkness?...

And so I am back.

Tired but all in one piece from the battle.

Today was a massive ‘take me apart’ fest. On one hand they say ‘don’t take it personally’ but on the other hand you’re sat there in the hot seat with 20 odd students throwing assumptions, accusations, condescending and patronising ‘constructive criticism’ at you.

Being a student representative trying to prove my worth I swallowed my pride and listened. I was trembling slightly from the adrenaline rush hearing all these accusations and having resistance that comprised of the majority of the students. It was very difficult to prove myself when people are trying to pick bones from an egg and making mountains out of a molehill. No matter what I do, I cannot please them. When there is a resistance of such scale, no matter how righteous one is, it’s almost impossible to remain in such position… it is perhaps inevitable to step down one day if there's no way of changing their attitudes towards you.

However, right now I feel as though I’m cornered. Whilst I want to prove myself by being myself, I don’t want to have to tolerate all this. It is clear that even though these things are apparently ‘not personal’, that they are. That they are undermining and daring me, either to step down in defeat or by wrapping myself around their little finger.

I know it’s a political game, but I refuse to do it for the sake of playing by the game and being fake to people, socialising out of pretence. I’m not such person with a charade.

I won’t admit defeat but I am not obliged to tolerate such psychological bullying.

I didn’t sign up for this rubbish.

It’s neither a beginning nor the end. It’s approaching an eclipse, where things stand in the dark for some time….

Who knows what will happen.

Let’s just see how things go…

Heading into battle alone...

In the past month, I have been unable to write as I was extremely busy.

Each day I was faced with deadlines and people chasing for work in shorter and shorter periods of time.

I was working between 10-16 hours a day on my work at home.

Although it was tough, it didn't bother me much and I was glad to be excused from the PhD office.

Upon my return I was back in the battlefield, or more precisely another battlefield, and the most difficult of all; the socio-political battlefield.

For months now I have been tolerating people undermining me, questioning my competences, condescending attitudes and discrimination for being apparently "young and inexperienced" and various other personal remarks which I will not repeat here. I have been patient, tolerant and forgiving. 

I won't deny that I have been an achiever on this course, but it has never been due to luck or chance.  And being the youngest in the office until very recently, I have had to put up with a mixture of reactions from my so called colleagues about my existence. I don't go out to provoke nor do I put up a haughty front. In fact I keep myself to myself and am rather nonchalant although not unfriendly.

There's a chinese idiom "無敵是最寂寞" ~ To be without an enemy is the loneliest. 

This idiom perhaps portrays the loneliness one experiences when you have no one who understands you because you have reached places they haven't yet; when you've climbed that mountain and you're standing on the top, no one else will know what you're seeing... so they won't understand.

Indeed being currently the highest achiever in the PhD office for my year, it does prove difficult for others to approach me or be convinced that in fact I do not care nor judge. However it is far from lonely, isolated yes, but I'm not lonely. Far from it.

I thrive on my solitude. 

I hunt alone; my own goals, my own strategies, and eventually my own achievements.

I fight my battles alone.

I never chose it to be that way, but since I was young fate has forced me to hold my own or at least learn to. And here I am. The more you doubt me, force me into an hostile environment, the stronger I become.

My first week out of the house to the office for weeks since the start of my project that had forced me to become reclusive and confine myself to the four walls of my room, I return last week to discover that the office 'situation' has exacerbated.

Factions and cliques are becoming obvious, if not absolutely blatent. Members whispering in groups and plotting, everyone involved but myself. Call me paranoid but it's one of those hunches you can't really get wrong. I ignored it since of course there's no proof, even with members of staff noticing the weird behaviour occurring in the office. And lo behold I receive an email minutes later, calling for a group meeting. I sense a revolution, a plot to scrape me off my feet, and make me fall.

Laura Mercier Petite Baked Eye Colour Trio [Limited Edition]

This is a beautiful wet/dry palette that applies light and smooth when dry, and fabulously intense when applied with a wet brush! 

It's out for Christmas and I just bought it because it just looked irresistible! 

This colour palette "Golden Metallics" I chose is perfect for the Egyptian seductress (*^.~*)

Laura Mercier Petite Baked Eye Colour Trio [Limited Edition]
in "Golden Metallics"
"Gold Leaf", "Black Karat" and "Emerald"

A MAC X'mas! MAC Limited Edition Cosmetics!

Hehe! It's not even Christmas and I'm stocking up on these beautifully cute 'stocking fillers'! (*^.~*) They are so so pretty!

MAC "Primped Out Look Bag" in "Lavish Coral"
"Shy Girl" Lipstick
"Kiss Me Softly" Lipglass
"Boldly Bare" Lip pencil

MAC "Devine Desire" Full Face Kit
in "Paramour Pink"

叉燒拉面 (Char Siu Ramen) チャーシューラーメン Chashu Ramen @ YO! Sushi

Went to the sushi bar for lunch today and they had 10" (25cm) bowls of ramen on the menu (*^^*)

I came back stuffed full of sushi hehe!

叉燒拉面 Char Siu Ramen
チャーシューラーメンChāshū Ramen

A Japanese X'mas: Tree Decorations from John Lewis

John Lewis has a new range of Christmas tree decorations for those who want a Japanese inspired X'mas tree full of Kokeshi dolls and lucky cats (*^^*)

Taylor R in Iijin @ Central, Hong Kong

I shop at this boutique all the time... I'm glad Taylor R does too! (*^~^*)

I end up spending my entire savings in here hehe!

Iijin: Fall/Winter 2012 Looks

Some photos from this season's lookbook! 

I have these sneakers!

Iijin: Lace Sneakers High Top (White, Fuchia, Purple)

 HK$1450

Strawberry Heart Gateaux ♥

Made for a very special someone on a very special day...


I spent most of yesterday preparing, baking and decorating this cake (*^^*)

It is filled with fresh strawberry chunks and freshly thick whipped cream, topped of with strawberry syrup glazed fresh strawberries and decorated with fresh whipped cream on the top and sides.

Success comes from within...

"To really succeed, one must let go of many preconceptions and be open minded, whilst keeping ones integrity without being stubborn." ~ (Me, 2012)

Succeed, success, successful... three words that many people strive for, in various different ways and forms. What do these words mean to me?

I have 'progressed'!!

I know it's been a while, but as I have said in my previous post, I had a major exam to prepare for.

An exam that will determine my career; decided in one hour! You get instant feedback straight away, so you know whether you passed or failed (as waiting for the official announcements means waiting for all the committee boards to be notified and approve of it, so you'll be hanging around wasting time). Instant death situation!!!

So I was reading and reading and preparing all I can for it. Thus, my lack of activity on here. I simply didn't really have much to report on, apart from my pile up of various work whilst I 'studied'.

Every one else's 'viva voce' or 'progression exam' lasted in and around 1 hour. How long was I in there for? 1 hour 40mins! (>.<;)

少女-ロリヰタ-23区 Lolita23q -Hikari-

My Green ♡ Heart

Today I spontaneously decided to modify recipes and bake my own Matcha Green Tea Heart Cake.
It was probably just under 2lbs in weight, about 2-2.5 inches high at the side.

It was deliciously moist and fluffy soft inside (*^^*)

Success!

You were meant for me... [Fiona Sit cover]

Dreams last... yes they do... Enjoy! (*^^*)

This artist ISN'T Gigi Leung.. the person got it wrong.

I hear the clock it's 6am
I feel so far from where I've been
I got my eggs and my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup everything but you

I break the yolks and make a smiley face
I knida like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off all the mirror
Don't leave the keys in my door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore

Cause Dreams last so long Even after you're gone
I know that you love me And soon you will see
And I was meant for you

PhD Round 1...

Hello everyone!

It's been seriously busy, let me tell you why....

Mid-Autumn Festival! お月見祭り

Mid-Autumn Festival has arrived again!